Thursday, January 29, 2015

What Do I Know?

My dear readers... it's been a long time and a lot has happened in the last few months... this is the first time I have been compelled to write in some time.. I truly hope it jump starts my writing...

1.)  I know that following your true calling isn't always the smooth road that you thought.  It has come with
  a LOT of emotional and physical healing. After you push your body and mind to the brink, when you secretly say in your head as your walking out of the grocery store, "one more step Kim, one more step, you can do this, you can keep going.. one more step."  These are the words I said to myself during my last days in my corporate job. I was exhausted and running on borrowed adrenaline.  I pushed myself to complete projects I started, I committed to setting my team up for success, I wrestled with the sadness of leaving people I loved dearly and a job I knew I was really good at.

2.)  I know that going after your dream is a bit like  running a marathon, you start out of the gate ready to go and pumped up and then, the wall hits. Your body says, "I'm tired,- I have kept you going all this time, now I need to tell you what's going on inside" "Please listen."   And then you listen and then,,,you feel the effects of leading that life of intense responsibility, trying to be the best of everything you thought you should be - the best daughter, the best employee, the best boss, the best sister, the best friend, being as fit and thin as you can be...And then your "biography becomes your biology" says Carolynn Myss. And the body breaks down and shouts at you to pay attention.

3.)  I know that like a marathon runner, it's all a mental game. And I refuse to give in and give up. I will succeed at following my dreams, whatever road they take me. Despite the fact that my body right now needs rest, the best nutrition I can give it, help from trusted alternative practitioners and friends, - I will make it through this transition to the life I was called to answer.

4.) I know that in the quietness of my time at home, I have begun to hear my inner voice a bit louder than before. I hear her, my friend who feels like she has been drowned out by the noise of life.  What does she say? Well, she was a bit lost and confused , her corporate life calling her back, pining for the familiar.

5.)  I know that when we access our spiritual connection to God, the Universe, whatever you call the Higher Power that operates in our world, we feel much better and somehow everything comes together.

Much Love and Light,


Monday, January 26, 2015

It's My Birthday Today...

I wrote this post on my Birthday, and I discovered that I hadn't posted it.. so.. my dear readers.. I hope that this brings a smile to you ..knowing that God does deliver our matter how small.

It's my Birthday today and so far, it's been the most incredible day.  I look around me at my beautiful home that I love to be in with my two furry friends (my cats, Bailey and Bella) and I am so very grateful that life has given me such an abundant life to be able to live here.

My two friends came over today and helped me organize and clean the house , something I love to have happen. It keeps me centered and feeling free of clutter in my life.

The afternoon was spent being pampered at one of my most favorite places to be in the world - the Salon!
My  hairdresser Jess always puts a smile on my face and makes me feel like the most beautiful woman in the world! She uses her craft to make my hair look amazing. The salon is always a buzz with woman and men talking about their lives, what their hopes and dreams are for the New Year, hair dryers buzzing and the owner of the salon stopped by and served everyone a mimosa to celebrate the coming New Year. Jess, listened to me talk about my evening ahead and called over to her friend who does wonders with makeup and asked her to perform her magic. I just love to be in the salon, being pampered, such an escape from the world and everyone loves to be there - especially me!

Three hours later, I leave the salon looking like a picture out of a magazine, and  wondering why I can't just look like this everyday! I called an ordered "salads to go" from Panera and headed home to see my friend who leaves my house sparkling clean.

We had a wonderful conversation together and then I proceeded to get ready for my date with a man who I reconnected with a few days ago after three years had gone by.

For the first time in a long time, I felt butterflies in my stomach again and I felt that excited, happy nervousness when you go out with someone for the first time. It was wonderful! He greeted me with flowers and a very sweet card. He looked amazing!

We ate a wonderful restaurant and then danced the night away to his favorite band in town. We held hands and snuggled each other most of the night and then went home to a cozy fire.

My friend Nikki and I had lunch a few days earlier and I had said to her: " boy, I would really love to go out on a date for my birthday." God delivered that to me. It was a magical evening. And I am truly grateful. Thank you Brian.

Much Love and Light,